SO TRUE................Carrie is like the Dalai Lam of relationships;)

“Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.”

Carrie from SATC best quote EVER!

“I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, all consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love.”

YOU MAY THINK YOU KNOW ME....

I hate when people make assumptions on you based on a couple of conversations and brief interactions. I think it's naive, immature and stupid. No one can ever really know another person let alone tell other people they have them all figured out. So I decided to write this.

You Think You Know me but You Don't

You think I'm dumb because I keep it light, but thats alright, because thats what I want you to see.

You think you frighten me with your stares, but thats alright, because thats what I want you to believe.

You think I think your the most interesting person in the world and thats ok because thats how I want you to feel.

You think i'm crazy,maybe I am, but it's fun to be crazy. It keeps you on your toes.

You think I don't care, maybe I don't, but at least I don't pretend to either.

You think I care to much,you think I love,You didn't know that in a second I could cut you out of my life and never look back.

You think I'm immature, but living life to the fullest and laughing like a kid doesn't make me a kid.

You think I'm sad. Im not.

You think my Joy is fake. It isn't

You think you can make me feel small. You can't. I laugh at you when you try. My friends snicker at the ass that you are when you try to make them belive lies.

You think Im a joke, guess what I think you are too.

You think you've won, that karma will get me. What you don't know is I only learn and never suffer. I'll keep making lemonade so keep the lemons coming cause my sunshine doesnt fade.

You can't stand me, Thats great, misery loves company and im not miserable so it's a compliment not to be liked by YOU.

I think I know you but I don't

I see the mask you saw in me that we see in others like a disease...............

favorite poem

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley

Pink Laptop where R U?

My search for a pink laptop has proved even more exhausting than my search for the perfect man, both seem to be non-existant. Maybe its me, maybe my expectations are to high. Well, I didn't settle for the wrong guy and so now I won't settle for the wrong laptop.

I have been to every store in the bay area in search of the elusive pink laptop and none have it. Now, I am seriously considering getting it online, hey you can get a man online why not a laptop. The only problem is like the men online its a crapshoot. What if its defective, what if the UPS guy man handles it, what if its a level 7 clinger or it smells bad,what if the hardware is defective?

Today, I was so close yet so far away. I thought a pink vaio netbook would cut it, just like I thought a 21yr old boy would cut it, but like the boy, the netbook fell short. First of all the sales guy couldnt even take it out of the box so I could see how pink it was, even after my homie Esther and I badgered him. Second, the processor was slow. I just couldn't settle for a slow anything.

So, the search continues. I'm going to stop looking and like with men the perfect laptop WILL eventually just come to me.